Day 1

Starting tomorrow = no carbs. I started this last week and completely fell off the wagon and landed about a mile from the road. It was bad. But I am going to do it, I have to. Oh carbs, how I will miss you. I'll be back, don't worry about that. Just not for a while.

All I gotta say is that I better look damn good after this for all this torture!

Seems Like a Lifetime...

...and yet it seems like it was just yesterday. Four years ago today, I lost my dad. My whole world shattered. It was and probably will always be the worst day of my life. I miss him like crazy. Every girl needs her daddy.

My dad and I were really close, I felt like I could talk to him about anything and we did almost everything together. We made trips to the hardware store, holding hands as we walked through the parking lot and the trip always ended up with us sharing a Hershey's bar with almonds. Or the times we would go to lunch at some hole in the wall with amazing food because my dad ate like it was his job. Or when we drove around in the car singing along to the soundtrack for Fiddler on the Roof at the top of our lungs. Or when I would break the lawn mower and we would have to try and figure out how to fix it and make it last just a little bit longer. Or the time I wanted a playhouse and halfway through we ran out of wood, so I had half of a floor and half of a roof and of course they were on opposite sides, but I had a door! One of my fave memories is when he would drive down this old country road in his little white toyota truck after it rained and he would let me get in the bed of the truck and he would hit every puddle possible. I would laugh like crazy and he would try to hit the puddles harder so I would get even wetter and I would laugh harder.

My dad taught me how to be strong and brave and to fight for everything. He (and my mom) taught me that if you want something you have to work hard for it and that no matter what you did, an honest day of work anywhere was something to be proud of. My dad fought til the very end and I could not be more proud than to call him my dad. I still regret that last night, not waking him up to give him one more hug, kiss, and an I love you. I would give anything for just one more hug or conversation with him. There is so much that he was supposed to teach me and so many stories that I didn't hear enough.

The best piece of advice my dad gave me was that there are 3 types of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who watch what happen, and those that wonder what happened. This always motivates me to just get out there and try something, you never know what will happen if you just try.

I love you daddy and I miss you. I still wish you were here and I hope you are proud of me. And don't forget, you can't haunt me, it isn't funny!

This was created by my dad, along with Grant Burgers. It's at the San Diego Fair, LA county fair and Orange County fair. I've worked there twice and I loved it. So proud of my daddy!

A Fashionable Home

I am in the market for looking for a new place to live. It's got me thinking of decorations - even though I rarely actually do it! I feel like each rental is so temporary and I never know where I will be in a few months that it just doesn't seem worth it to decorate and then have to fix everything back. But it still doesn't stop me from thinking about my dream house and that interior!

I found Cox & Cox through Brunch at Saks and instantly fell in love with some items!

Here are a few of my faves:

  
How awesome is this? This would look so cute with multiples for jackets in an entry way. Or in the bedroom as a way to hang accessories in a fabulous walk-in closet.

I love this for decorating the table. set small tea light candles or even fill with mini roses. Precious!

I think this is so pretty! I love that it is so simple and yet really stands out. And the best part is that you can still personalize it with your own trinkets that you don't know where else to put!

I love wall decorations and I think this candle sconce is beautiful! It looks vintage but modern all at the same time and would be absolutely gorg all lit up!

I think that this wall clock is adorable! How cute would this be with pictures of family {or puppies!}? This would be so cute in the kitchen because isn't that where the majority of families spend their time anyways?

Who can't use more love in their life? This would be perfect for hosting dinner parties with loved ones! Use to put dip in or even just as simple decoration.

I can't wait to have a fabulous backyard to host a lot of BBQs. We always had BBQs when I was growing up and it was always so much fun! This would be super cute hung above everyone's heads to light up the summer night.

I DIE for this! I want this cookie cutter so bad! I want to make myself crown cookies and crown pancakes and crown everything! Haha I think I might just have to order this!

How cute are these little heart molds? I would use this all the time if I had that gourmet kitchen I dream about! This is good for chocolate hearts for Valentine's Day or just any time you want someone to feel a little extra love! 

I can't wait to one day buy a house, especially when it comes time to buy my dream house! I think that as long as you have a happy family and a happy heart, your home will be a happy one, but it doesn't hurt for it to look good at the same time! I also plan to decorate the walls with my fabulous shoe collection, so maybe that's just me?

Hope you all had a fun weekend! 

{P.S. sorry the pictures are spaced funky. I have been having so much trouble lately formatting my posts with pictures. If anyone can help me figure out why it's being so weird, I would love to fix it!}

Getting to Know Me: Round 3

"You got to dig a little deeper

Find out who you are

You got to dig a little deeper

It really ain't that far"

{The Princess and the Frog}

1. One thing I MUST do before I die is go travel around the world. oh and have kids.

2. I would rather have a few wonderfully amazing friends than have 100 not so nice friends any day. {yep learned my lesson on that the hard way.}

3. If I could give my younger self one piece of advice it would be to take more risks and never give up and don't let the world get you down.

4. If I won the lottery tomorrow I'd pay off debt, pay for school, buy my mom and sis houses and then go on a family vacay!

5. The best surprise ever was when he proposed.

6. My biggest fault is that I take everything personally and can't let it go. I am a perfectionist and I let it ruin a lot of things because I can't let go. It makes me overly emotional.

7. My biggest strength is that I can make it through anything. I already have.

I Want and I Need..

When it comes to clothes, isn't a want and a need kind of the same thing? We all need clothes, and we all want them to be fashionable right? Well I DO! I'm over jeans and a t-shirt blah wardrobe!

Here are a few things I NEED!

{courtesy of Nordstrom!}

And this..

{Nordy's again!}

And these...

{Nordy's yet again!}

Oh Boy! I can't wait to get my shop on! Hopefully I can find a couple of good pieces!

My Days Are Off

I don't know why I can't seem to blog on the reg, but I am slowly starting to get used to my new work sched so hopefully I'll get back on the ball. I have a lot going on this week {hello payday and much needed grocery and work clothes shopping!} and also a lot personally, emotionally, and crazily as well.

So instead of calling this fill in the blank Fridays like it is supposed to be, I'm just going to call it getting to know me better days. Is that okay with everyone? Good!

1. When I'm nervous I crack my knuckles, chew my lip, or play with my page edges.

2. My favorite item in my closet is probably my shoes! duh.

3. Reading or taking a tub is my favorite thing to do when I need to relax.

4. My favorite childhood memory is doing just about anything with my daddy. I would give anything and everything to have just one of those days back, I miss you daddy.

5. Something you may not know about me is to not touch my neck. Just don't, I will hurt you. I like to educate everyone on this fact.

6. A true friend won't tell you if you are being crazy or emotional, they just let you rant until you feel better and then give you wine.

7. Something I hope people think of when they think of me is funny (me too Tasha!) and also smart. I don't know why but that's really important to me.

Random side note: I need help from everyone! I need some fashion/clothing inspiration before my shopping trip Saturday and just for in general. I want to really update my look, please send me your fave outfits or inspirations! I also want to change my hair, does anyone have good tips? Thanks!!!!

Fill in The Blank {Fridays}

Fill in the Blank Fridays....yeah, I know, I'm a couple days behind..

Thanks Natasha and Lindsay!

1. If I could medal in an olympic event it would be figure skating - I would love to design my own outfits!!! haha

2. If I was stranded on a deserted island I'd take nothing because I wouldn't go to an island with nothing on it. I'll just take Hawaii or the South of France.

3. People touching my neck is/are my most irrational fear. Yeah, don't do it, I am not nice about it. You would probably end up hurt.

4. I'd rather shop all day everyday, than work everyday.

5. I am excited about getting my first paycheck from my new job!

6. I should really be picking out my outfit for tomorrow but it's just depressing staring at how pitiful my closet is.

7. One of my favorite things in all the world is shoes. and shopping. and shoe shopping. Oh and chocolate.