DYING

Shopping for impossible to find 3" (for a pair of work pants, I'd prefer taller!) round toe brown leather pumps and these are a few pairs I came across that I am DYING over. Wish I could buy these like NOW!

From Piperlime.com

From Nordstrom.com

From Piperlime.com

From Nordstrom.com

If anyone knows where to get a good deal on those brown shoes I mentioned earlier, please let me know!

Hopeless Romantic

I was watching The Sound of Music and forgot how much I love the movie, not to mention the fashion from the 1930's and 1940's. I am such a hopeless romantic, I want to sing and dance in the rain, in a courtyard under moonlight, and at a ball wearing a ball gown. Even though I did not live during this time period, I miss the glamour and sophistication of this era. Men and women dressed for every occasion, where did this formality go and why does it not exist anymore? Watching movies like this tempt me to be an actress because I want to create magic, like the feelings that sweep over me when I watch The Sound of Music or basically any musical.

Here are just some pictures that I loved and wish that I could wear right now!

I die for a great, dramatic hat and ensemble!
Found at revampvintage.com

Can't talk about the '30s without the great Coco Chanel, found at pastreunited.com

Wish I could find a better picture, but the Baroness' clothes in The Sound of Music are to die for!

One day, I will have the chance to dress up and attend a ball and dance under the moonlight. At least a girl can dream right?

Whoa

Can't believe I haven't blogged since March 24th. I miss the blog but I haven't felt that anything in my life is worth blogging right now. I have been doing a lot of complaining and I feel that everyone around me has had enough of that. So, until I can figure out something positive to blog about, the silence will continue.

I just have to say sorry to everyone who has had to listen to me being whiny and annoying the past few months. I promise I am working on changing that! Love you all for sticking with me and still listening to me complain. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know!!

Hello Friend!

I have been having a really good week. I feel like talking about it is going to jinx it, but I just want to celebrate some happiness, so I'm throwing caution to the wind! Finally found a new place to live (woo!), the job is going good, and my friends are awesome. I really am lucky to have some of the best friends a girl could ever want. My friends don't judge me, they tell me the truth, pick me up when I am down, and keep me going through the storm. They are always there to talk to, to laugh with, to shop with, to cry with. Sometimes I stop to think about what my life would be without these people and then I shake my head because it just wouldn't be possible, I wouldn't have made it this far without them. 

I recently had a toxic group of "friends" that I had known for many years. I thought that we were all close and that one of these girls was my "best friend". Do not pass go, do not collect your lifetime friendship card on that one! Found out that this person made fun of me and talked about me and my problems behind my back, and about everyone else in the group as well. Really person? After everything I went through, you thought you had the right to judge me because we were "best friends"? Well, me being the super mature woman that I am, I got a few jabs in and then just stopped talking to this group of people. At that point in my life, I had so much going on, I just didn't have the energy to confront and yell and get angry at that person. They obviously didn't care that much about me, so I stopped caring about them. Honestly, my life has been so much better without them that I wish I had done it sooner! I can be myself around my friends now and not have to pretend to be someone or something I'm not. I can like what I want and not be ridiculed for it. Sure, my friends may laugh at me for what I like, but they never make me feel bad for it.

 True friends will definitely keep it 100 with you at all times but never make you feel like less of a person. I just wanted to write this quick post as a HUGE thank you to my friends. I know I couldn't make it through this life without you. Thank you for making me who I am today. Oh and I hope you like me, because you are stuck with me now! 

You Know You're Excited..

1. Today I am wearing sweats and my Cowboys t-shirt (the best bar in the entire world!).

2. My favorite childhood food was peanut butter and my favorite food now is pretty much anything, sushi and mexican top the list though!

3. A day that I am too busy to __eat __is a day that I am too busy.

4. The last movie I saw was "Snow White" and the next movie I want to see is something in the theater because I haven't had movie theater popcorn in far too long!

5. My favorite smell is anything citrusy because, it smells fresh and clean .

6. A weird little quirk I have is don't touch my neck, oh and my bathroom repulsions (aren't you just dying to know more about me?).

7. When I take personality quizzes they always say I'm boring. haha no, I don't know! what would you guys say?

I really don't have anything to write about just yet. No amazing inspirations or muses have come into my life lately. It's just been life. Still waiting to win the lotto. Still working and wishing and hoping for all of my dreams to come true.  

Really wishin' I had this to come home to:

{courtesy of Blissliving Home}

Doesn't it look so inviting and refreshing and scream "SLEEP IN ME!" ?

Day 1

Starting tomorrow = no carbs. I started this last week and completely fell off the wagon and landed about a mile from the road. It was bad. But I am going to do it, I have to. Oh carbs, how I will miss you. I'll be back, don't worry about that. Just not for a while.

All I gotta say is that I better look damn good after this for all this torture!

Seems Like a Lifetime...

...and yet it seems like it was just yesterday. Four years ago today, I lost my dad. My whole world shattered. It was and probably will always be the worst day of my life. I miss him like crazy. Every girl needs her daddy.

My dad and I were really close, I felt like I could talk to him about anything and we did almost everything together. We made trips to the hardware store, holding hands as we walked through the parking lot and the trip always ended up with us sharing a Hershey's bar with almonds. Or the times we would go to lunch at some hole in the wall with amazing food because my dad ate like it was his job. Or when we drove around in the car singing along to the soundtrack for Fiddler on the Roof at the top of our lungs. Or when I would break the lawn mower and we would have to try and figure out how to fix it and make it last just a little bit longer. Or the time I wanted a playhouse and halfway through we ran out of wood, so I had half of a floor and half of a roof and of course they were on opposite sides, but I had a door! One of my fave memories is when he would drive down this old country road in his little white toyota truck after it rained and he would let me get in the bed of the truck and he would hit every puddle possible. I would laugh like crazy and he would try to hit the puddles harder so I would get even wetter and I would laugh harder.

My dad taught me how to be strong and brave and to fight for everything. He (and my mom) taught me that if you want something you have to work hard for it and that no matter what you did, an honest day of work anywhere was something to be proud of. My dad fought til the very end and I could not be more proud than to call him my dad. I still regret that last night, not waking him up to give him one more hug, kiss, and an I love you. I would give anything for just one more hug or conversation with him. There is so much that he was supposed to teach me and so many stories that I didn't hear enough.

The best piece of advice my dad gave me was that there are 3 types of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who watch what happen, and those that wonder what happened. This always motivates me to just get out there and try something, you never know what will happen if you just try.

I love you daddy and I miss you. I still wish you were here and I hope you are proud of me. And don't forget, you can't haunt me, it isn't funny!

This was created by my dad, along with Grant Burgers. It's at the San Diego Fair, LA county fair and Orange County fair. I've worked there twice and I loved it. So proud of my daddy!