Tuesday, October 5, 2010


Shopping for impossible to find 3" (for a pair of work pants, I'd prefer taller!) round toe brown leather pumps and these are a few pairs I came across that I am DYING over. Wish I could buy these like NOW!

From Piperlime.com
From Nordstrom.com
From Piperlime.com

From Nordstrom.com
If anyone knows where to get a good deal on those brown shoes I mentioned earlier, please let me know!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Hopeless Romantic

I was watching The Sound of Music and forgot how much I love the movie, not to mention the fashion from the 1930's and 1940's. I am such a hopeless romantic, I want to sing and dance in the rain, in a courtyard under moonlight, and at a ball wearing a ball gown. Even though I did not live during this time period, I miss the glamour and sophistication of this era. Men and women dressed for every occasion, where did this formality go and why does it not exist anymore? Watching movies like this tempt me to be an actress because I want to create magic, like the feelings that sweep over me when I watch The Sound of Music or basically any musical.

Here are just some pictures that I loved and wish that I could wear right now!

I die for a great, dramatic hat and ensemble!
Found at revampvintage.com
Can't talk about the '30s without the great Coco Chanel, found at pastreunited.com
Wish I could find a better picture, but the Baroness' clothes in The Sound of Music are to die for!

One day, I will have the chance to dress up and attend a ball and dance under the moonlight. At least a girl can dream right?

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


Can't believe I haven't blogged since March 24th. I miss the blog but I haven't felt that anything in my life is worth blogging right now. I have been doing a lot of complaining and I feel that everyone around me has had enough of that. So, until I can figure out something positive to blog about, the silence will continue.

I just have to say sorry to everyone who has had to listen to me being whiny and annoying the past few months. I promise I am working on changing that! Love you all for sticking with me and still listening to me complain. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Hello Friend!

I have been having a really good week. I feel like talking about it is going to jinx it, but I just want to celebrate some happiness, so I'm throwing caution to the wind! Finally found a new place to live (woo!), the job is going good, and my friends are awesome. I really am lucky to have some of the best friends a girl could ever want. My friends don't judge me, they tell me the truth, pick me up when I am down, and keep me going through the storm. They are always there to talk to, to laugh with, to shop with, to cry with. Sometimes I stop to think about what my life would be without these people and then I shake my head because it just wouldn't be possible, I wouldn't have made it this far without them. 

I recently had a toxic group of "friends" that I had known for many years. I thought that we were all close and that one of these girls was my "best friend". Do not pass go, do not collect your lifetime friendship card on that one! Found out that this person made fun of me and talked about me and my problems behind my back, and about everyone else in the group as well. Really person? After everything I went through, you thought you had the right to judge me because we were "best friends"? Well, me being the super mature woman that I am, I got a few jabs in and then just stopped talking to this group of people. At that point in my life, I had so much going on, I just didn't have the energy to confront and yell and get angry at that person. They obviously didn't care that much about me, so I stopped caring about them. Honestly, my life has been so much better without them that I wish I had done it sooner! I can be myself around my friends now and not have to pretend to be someone or something I'm not. I can like what I want and not be ridiculed for it. Sure, my friends may laugh at me for what I like, but they never make me feel bad for it.

 True friends will definitely keep it 100 with you at all times but never make you feel like less of a person. I just wanted to write this quick post as a HUGE thank you to my friends. I know I couldn't make it through this life without you. Thank you for making me who I am today. Oh and I hope you like me, because you are stuck with me now! 

Monday, March 22, 2010

You Know You're Excited..

1. Today I am wearing sweats and my Cowboys t-shirt (the best bar in the entire world!).

2. My favorite childhood food was peanut butter and my favorite food now is pretty much anything, sushi and mexican top the list though!

3. A day that I am too busy to __eat __is a day that I am too busy.

4. The last movie I saw was "Snow White" and the next movie I want to see is something in the theater because I haven't had movie theater popcorn in far too long!

5. My favorite smell is anything citrusy because, it smells fresh and clean .

6. A weird little quirk I have is don't touch my neck, oh and my bathroom repulsions (aren't you just dying to know more about me?).

7. When I take personality quizzes they always say I'm boring. haha no, I don't know! what would you guys say?

I really don't have anything to write about just yet. No amazing inspirations or muses have come into my life lately. It's just been life. Still waiting to win the lotto. Still working and wishing and hoping for all of my dreams to come true.  

Really wishin' I had this to come home to:

{courtesy of Blissliving Home}

Doesn't it look so inviting and refreshing and scream "SLEEP IN ME!" ?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Day 1

Starting tomorrow = no carbs. I started this last week and completely fell off the wagon and landed about a mile from the road. It was bad. But I am going to do it, I have to. Oh carbs, how I will miss you. I'll be back, don't worry about that. Just not for a while.

All I gotta say is that I better look damn good after this for all this torture!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Seems Like a Lifetime...

...and yet it seems like it was just yesterday. Four years ago today, I lost my dad. My whole world shattered. It was and probably will always be the worst day of my life. I miss him like crazy. Every girl needs her daddy.

My dad and I were really close, I felt like I could talk to him about anything and we did almost everything together. We made trips to the hardware store, holding hands as we walked through the parking lot and the trip always ended up with us sharing a Hershey's bar with almonds. Or the times we would go to lunch at some hole in the wall with amazing food because my dad ate like it was his job. Or when we drove around in the car singing along to the soundtrack for Fiddler on the Roof at the top of our lungs. Or when I would break the lawn mower and we would have to try and figure out how to fix it and make it last just a little bit longer. Or the time I wanted a playhouse and halfway through we ran out of wood, so I had half of a floor and half of a roof and of course they were on opposite sides, but I had a door! One of my fave memories is when he would drive down this old country road in his little white toyota truck after it rained and he would let me get in the bed of the truck and he would hit every puddle possible. I would laugh like crazy and he would try to hit the puddles harder so I would get even wetter and I would laugh harder.

My dad taught me how to be strong and brave and to fight for everything. He (and my mom) taught me that if you want something you have to work hard for it and that no matter what you did, an honest day of work anywhere was something to be proud of. My dad fought til the very end and I could not be more proud than to call him my dad. I still regret that last night, not waking him up to give him one more hug, kiss, and an I love you. I would give anything for just one more hug or conversation with him. There is so much that he was supposed to teach me and so many stories that I didn't hear enough.

The best piece of advice my dad gave me was that there are 3 types of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who watch what happen, and those that wonder what happened. This always motivates me to just get out there and try something, you never know what will happen if you just try.

I love you daddy and I miss you. I still wish you were here and I hope you are proud of me. And don't forget, you can't haunt me, it isn't funny!

This was created by my dad, along with Grant Burgers. It's at the San Diego Fair, LA county fair and Orange County fair. I've worked there twice and I loved it. So proud of my daddy!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

A Fashionable Home

I am in the market for looking for a new place to live. It's got me thinking of decorations - even though I rarely actually do it! I feel like each rental is so temporary and I never know where I will be in a few months that it just doesn't seem worth it to decorate and then have to fix everything back. But it still doesn't stop me from thinking about my dream house and that interior!

I found Cox & Cox through Brunch at Saks and instantly fell in love with some items!
Here are a few of my faves:

How awesome is this? This would look so cute with multiples for jackets in an entry way. Or in the bedroom as a way to hang accessories in a fabulous walk-in closet.

I love this for decorating the table. set small tea light candles or even fill with mini roses. Precious!

I think this is so pretty! I love that it is so simple and yet really stands out. And the best part is that you can still personalize it with your own trinkets that you don't know where else to put!

I love wall decorations and I think this candle sconce is beautiful! It looks vintage but modern all at the same time and would be absolutely gorg all lit up!
I think that this wall clock is adorable! How cute would this be with pictures of family {or puppies!}? This would be so cute in the kitchen because isn't that where the majority of families spend their time anyways?
Who can't use more love in their life? This would be perfect for hosting dinner parties with loved ones! Use to put dip in or even just as simple decoration.
I can't wait to have a fabulous backyard to host a lot of BBQs. We always had BBQs when I was growing up and it was always so much fun! This would be super cute hung above everyone's heads to light up the summer night.
I DIE for this! I want this cookie cutter so bad! I want to make myself crown cookies and crown pancakes and crown everything! Haha I think I might just have to order this!
How cute are these little heart molds? I would use this all the time if I had that gourmet kitchen I dream about! This is good for chocolate hearts for Valentine's Day or just any time you want someone to feel a little extra love! 

I can't wait to one day buy a house, especially when it comes time to buy my dream house! I think that as long as you have a happy family and a happy heart, your home will be a happy one, but it doesn't hurt for it to look good at the same time! I also plan to decorate the walls with my fabulous shoe collection, so maybe that's just me?
Hope you all had a fun weekend! 

{P.S. sorry the pictures are spaced funky. I have been having so much trouble lately formatting my posts with pictures. If anyone can help me figure out why it's being so weird, I would love to fix it!}

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Getting to Know Me: Round 3

"You got to dig a little deeper
Find out who you are
You got to dig a little deeper
It really ain't that far"
{The Princess and the Frog}

1. One thing I MUST do before I die is go travel around the world. oh and have kids.

2. I would rather have a few wonderfully amazing friends
than have 100 not so nice friends any day. {yep learned my lesson on that the hard way.}

3. If I could give my younger self one piece of advice it would be to take more risks and never give up and don't let the world get you down.

4. If I won the lottery tomorrow I'd pay off debt, pay for school, buy my mom and sis houses and then go on a family vacay!

5. The best surprise ever was
when he proposed.

6. My biggest fault is that
I take everything personally and can't let it go. I am a perfectionist and I let it ruin a lot of things because I can't let go. It makes me overly emotional.

7. My biggest strength is that
I can make it through anything. I already have.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

I Want and I Need..

When it comes to clothes, isn't a want and a need kind of the same thing? We all need clothes, and we all want them to be fashionable right? Well I DO! I'm over jeans and a t-shirt blah wardrobe!

Here are a few things I NEED!

{courtesy of Nordstrom!}

And this..

{Nordy's again!}

And these...

{Nordy's yet again!}

Oh Boy! I can't wait to get my shop on! Hopefully I can find a couple of good pieces!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

My Days Are Off

I don't know why I can't seem to blog on the reg, but I am slowly starting to get used to my new work sched so hopefully I'll get back on the ball. I have a lot going on this week {hello payday and much needed grocery and work clothes shopping!} and also a lot personally, emotionally, and crazily as well.

So instead of calling this fill in the blank Fridays like it is supposed to be, I'm just going to call it getting to know me better days. Is that okay with everyone? Good!

1. When I'm nervous I
crack my knuckles, chew my lip, or play with my page edges.

2. My favorite item in my closet is probably my shoes
! duh.

3. Reading or taking a tub
is my favorite thing to do when I need to relax.

4. My favorite childhood memory is
doing just about anything with my daddy. I would give anything and everything to have just one of those days back, I miss you daddy.

5. Something you may not know about me is
to not touch my neck. Just don't, I will hurt you. I like to educate everyone on this fact.

6. A true friend won't tell you if
you are being crazy or emotional, they just let you rant until you feel better and then give you wine.

7. Something I hope people think of when they think of me is funny (me too Tasha!) and also smart. I don't know why but that's really important to me.

Random side note: I need help from everyone! I need some fashion/clothing inspiration before my shopping trip Saturday and just for in general. I want to really update my look, please send me your fave outfits or inspirations! I also want to change my hair, does anyone have good tips? Thanks!!!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Fill in The Blank {Fridays}

Fill in the Blank Fridays....yeah, I know, I'm a couple days behind..

Thanks Natasha and Lindsay!

1. If I could medal in an olympic event it would be figure skating - I would love to design my own outfits!!! haha

2. If I was stranded on a deserted island I'd take nothing because I wouldn't go to an island with nothing on it. I'll just take Hawaii or the South of France.

3. People touching my neck is/are my most irrational fear. Yeah, don't do it, I am not nice about it. You would probably end up hurt.

4. I'd rather shop all day everyday, than work everyday.

5. I am excited about getting my first paycheck from my new job!

6. I should really be picking out my outfit for tomorrow but it's just depressing staring at how pitiful my closet is.

7. One of my favorite things in all the world is shoes. and shopping. and shoe shopping. Oh and chocolate.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

R.I.P. Alexander McQueen

Today, the fashion industry lost a genius. Such a sad ending to a wonderful story.

~Just a few of my faves from Alexander McQueen~

He will definitely be missed.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Blah Blah Blues

Depression. I feel like this topic is one that people don't like to talk about, and it's almost a little taboo. I understand why you wouldn't want to talk about it. I don't like it. I hate spilling my guts about how I feel, because I absolutely do not want to come off as weak, pathetic, or unable to handle life. Because trust me, I've been through it all and I survived. But at the same time, there is always this black cloud that follows me around, and if I'm not careful. Bam.

I can just feel the crushing paralization of depression settling over me. There is just an overwhelming sense of sadness and I can't get out of my own head. The times when it gets really bad are the times when I can't get out of bed or off the couch and I can barely hold a conversation with another person. My mind can't focus or understand what is going on. The world takes on a shade of gray and I can sit and stare for hours at nothing. My whole body aches and I don't even have the energy to do anything at all. I don't feel good, actually, I barely even feel anything but that crushing weight.

When things go wrong, it's really hard for me to not go all Polly Pessimist but I try my best to stay upbeat. It's usually easier when I'm around people I don't know that well or don't want to show my feelings to, I've gotten pretty good at putting up that fake front that life is wonderful. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing? A friend of mine says the only emotion I am good at showing is anger. With the rest, you never know what I'm feeling. I've been doing it for so long, trying to control my emotions because I don't want to come across as weak. I hate to cry in front of people, even though I'm horrible at trying to stop the tears. I don't want to ever seem too happy because then I feel like something awful is going to come along and upset the apple cart.

All of this started when I was pretty young, and I've gotten used to dealing with a crazy storm of emotions and thoughts always running through my brain. I don't think it's "normal" but it's normal for me. In a way, it's been good for me, because I have gotten really good at focusing and concentrating on things because that way I can tune my brain out and not have to listen. The worst is at night, laying in bed and not having something else to focus on and listening to my brain go on hyper drive.

The past 7 years, I have always felt super stressed and that leads to my depression for sure. Especially lately, going through the worst financial time of my life and so many things changing, my eye-twitch is on over drive. My shoulders are always tense and it makes my chronic headaches even worse. {I'm not trying to complain, this is just me. Just want everyone to understand what I feel.}

The past couple of years, I have started having panic/anxiety attacks and those really bother me because I can't do anything once they start. They just have to run their course and those can leave me really shaken up and in a bad mood for a day or two.

I don't know if anyone else goes through this. I don't even know if anyone will actually read this. I highly doubt this will help anyone with anything. I just want to put it out there. I need to find more productive ways to get rid of the negative energy, I haven't been so good in the last few years as getting it out in a healthy way. At least here I can vent and whine and complain, and if no one wants to hear it, they don't have to read it, but I feel much better. For me personally, the best way to relieve stress is to beat the living daylights out of a punching bag, but that's not always an option. Running has been a good way to get out excess energy, but sometimes it's just a little too much quiet. I need someone to torture me in a workout so I can't think and all I feel is the pain of hard work.

I hope that this helps the people in my life to understand me a little bit better. When I'm in a bad mood, I try to not take it out on people but sometimes I fail. Big time. I withdraw into myself a lot because I am not good at talking about my feelings and what's going through my brain. Sometimes, it's hard for me because it all just becomes so overwhelming I tend to shut down a little bit. I like to think that I am super strong and can do anything and not need help from anyone. I am the one that takes care of everyone else. Lately, that has been the farthest thing from the truth as everyone has been really helping me and taking care of me. I couldn't appreciate it more, but I also can't wait for the day to come when I am more independent. I feel like a loser being like this.

This is a subject that I definitely want to hear from everyone on. If you don't want to share personal things, I completely understand, but I do want to hear from you in some way. I think that the more I talk to people, the better it helps me to feel about this. And I hope it helps you to talk to me.

Monday, January 18, 2010

What do you want to be when you grow up?

{The next few blogs are pretty personal and I had to really decide if I wanted to post this for everyone to read. It took longer than I thought, but I'm ready.}
It's funny how people start asking you at a young age what you want to be when you grow up. I know it's usually because it's cute to hear the answers that children come up with, but do they really think you're already supposed to know? Your life experience is basically zero at that age!
I went from wanting to be a heart surgeon to wanting to be an architect. After that I moved on to wedding planner. Then, I went back to wanting to be an architect (which through some unfortunate circumstances, I had to let that dream slide for the time being). Right now, I really want to pursue fashion and being a personal stylist. My tastes are all over the place, but the common thread is visual, I love pretty things!

The world assumes this is how it works: you know what you want to do, you go to school and then you do it. But what if you're like me? I have a plan, I've always had a plan. I've been crafting my ten year plan since I was in 9th grade. But then God or fate or both do their best to knock me down, kick me around and then point and laugh. Everyone says that if you want it bad enough, you'll make it happen. Nobody ever talks about those people that can't make it happen, no matter what they do. I thought being a college graduate meant that I had life figured out by now and that I knew how to succeed and was an official adult. I feel like I am none of those things. It seems like I am so far from any of those things than I would have ever thought possible at this point and time in my life. The world is passing me by and I know less and less what to do every day. Where do I go from here? Is it okay to feel lost? Why can't I just get one thing to go right so I can see some of my dreams come true? What is the point of working so hard when all you ever get is a door slammed in your face and trick windows that aren't even made to be opened? I wish I was still as optimistic as I was when I was in 3rd grade. Back then, I watched ER and knew that I could absolutely be a heart surgeon, not a problem. 

I know that I will probably never get the answers to these questions, but I hope that someday soon I will finally get it right. I know I just have to keep working and trying and eventually I will get there.If anyone has the answers or can offer some help, PLEASE let me know!

Thanks to everyone who has been there for me during this whole process, it really is amazing how much farther you can go with good people! 

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I'm Baaaccckk!

Hello there!

I am back in California! Woo!!! I am ready to re-introduce myself to the Pacific Ocean, and don't worry, I have already eaten at In-N-Out! Now I just need some See's candy!
Just wanted to say a quick hello and I am working on the formatting of my blog before I do a real post again.

So good to be back home!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

I Need Help..

No, I don't mean mental help (well, I probs do but that's a different topic for a different day), but I need help with my blog. I am so not up on my blogging game here and I want to make my blog look a tad bit more like I know what I'm doin' here. If you can help me with formatting and basically just anything on here, please let me know, I would loooove the help!

I haven't been blogging much because my time here at WDW is coming to a close and I am having a really hard time dealing. It's been such an amazing experience and I have met so many wonderful people and done things I never thought I would get to do. I have grown and changed in a myriad of ways and feel like I can do anything, all I have to do is go for it. I had to say goodbye to a co-worker today and it made me want to cry, and I have been feeling a little blue today. I will start blogging way more often once I get home (because let's face it, I will be jobless and probs sitting around doing nothing :/ ).

Hope everyone had a wonderful NYE, I had a great time surrounded by friends and fireworks and balloons. Omg, I am going to miss it here...